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my house will be a middle class house in a middle class neighborhood full of identical looking middle class houses. i will have a dog and a pool. i will live their with my wife who after years of marriage no longer loves me. i will have met her after moving to a new town to attend college. i will decide to act like someone im not wen i start over in this new town wich will attract my wife to me. after the initial excitement of the marriage wears off she will discover who i truly am and feel cheated and lied to. this will lead to her hatred of me. we will begin to sleep apart and rarely talk except for small talk over breakfast. i will resort to masturbation. i will go every day to a monotonous office job wich i hate. it will feel like im reliving the same day over and over again. this will cause me to have severe depression. me and my wife will have children who will grow up to not respect me and not be able to relate to me. they will grow up and move out. i will grow old and think about my youth often. those days wen i was with my friends and went to school and i was happy and carefree with my whole life ahead of me and endless possibilities at my fingertips. was that the same lifetime? i will become nostalgic and take out photos of my childhood. looking at pictures of my old friends i will wonder whatever happened to them. did they become a doctor or writer like they wanted to? no, they are probably in their middle class house looking at pictures wondering the same thing about me. life will go on. the only joy i can get out of life anymore is listening to music. i will spend nights with my old cds in the stereo and i will think of happier times untill my wife forces me to turn it off so she can sleep. i will grow old and senile and hate myself for wasting my life. i will die in the same house and leave the same wife alone. the world will be no different.